{"id":2228,"date":"2019-01-25T18:26:06","date_gmt":"2019-01-25T18:26:06","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/nikoljskij-vestnik-2018-7\/"},"modified":"2019-02-04T19:28:11","modified_gmt":"2019-02-04T19:28:11","slug":"iekseja-paspazeminasanas-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/iekseja-paspazeminasanas-2\/","title":{"rendered":"Iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101 pa\u0161pazemin\u0101\u0161an\u0101s – izlaidums \u2116 7, 2018 gada"},"content":{"rendered":"\t\t
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Ar Visaugstisv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101 R\u012bgas un visas Latvijas<\/span><\/p>

Metropol\u012bta Aleksandra sv\u0113t\u012bbu<\/span><\/p>

NIKOLAJA V\u0112STNESIS<\/strong>\u00a0<\/strong><\/span><\/p>

SV\u0112T\u0100 NIKOLAJA J\u016aRAS KATEDR\u0100LES<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\t\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\t\t\t\t

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IEK\u0160\u0112J\u0100\u00a0 PA\u0160PAZEMIN\u0100\u0160AN\u0100S<\/em><\/strong><\/span><\/p>

\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/span><\/p>

P\u0113c tam, kad m\u0113s ieg\u016bstam sirds gudru dom\u0101\u0161anas veidu un iem\u0101c\u0101mies l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgu uzved\u012bbu, mums ir nepiecie\u0161ams iziet cauri pa\u0161am atbild\u012bg\u0101kajam etapam ce\u013c\u0101 uz l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas tikuma ieg\u016b\u0161anu: caur \u0101r\u0113ju pazemin\u0101\u0161anos cilv\u0113ku priek\u0161\u0101. Tie\u0161i \u0161aj\u0101 etap\u0101 tiek p\u0101rbaud\u012bta un stiprin\u0101ta m\u016bsu l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba. Paz\u012bstamais teologs protoirejs Valent\u012bns Svencickis sarun\u0101 ar Sergeju Fudeli teica:<\/span><\/p>

  • L\u016bk, m\u0113s m\u0101c\u0101m par m\u012blest\u012bbu un l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, bet, ja mums autobus\u0101 k\u0101ds uzk\u0101pj uz k\u0101jas, m\u0113s t\u016bl\u012bt pat s\u0101kam cilv\u0113ku ien\u012bst. <\/strong><\/span><\/li><\/ul>

    Var visu laiku dom\u0101t par savu niec\u012bbu Dieva priek\u0161\u0101, izskat\u012bties l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgam un m\u0101c\u0113t l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgi sarun\u0101ties ar cilv\u0113kiem, bet paties\u012bb\u0101 b\u016bt t\u0101lu no patiesas l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas, kas tiek kalta tikai ar \u0101r\u0113ju p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumu \u0101muru. To zinot, <\/strong>daudzi ask\u0113ti pa\u0161i cent\u0101s sevi r\u016bd\u012bt apvainojumu, apmelojumu un spaidu <\/strong>dzirnav\u0101s. T\u0101 Maskavas metropol\u012bts Filipps, esot no paz\u012bstamas\u00a0 baj\u0101ru Koli\u010devu dzimtas, tr\u012bsdesmit gadu vecum\u0101 atst\u0101ja dienestu cara galm\u0101 un slepeni aizg\u0101ja uz Solovecas klosteri. \u0160eit n\u0101kamais sv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101js, nosl\u0113pjot savu izcelsmi un k\u0101rtu, ar cent\u012bbu un sirds vienk\u0101r\u0161\u012bbu izpild\u012bja visu, ko vi\u0146am lika dar\u012bt. Vi\u0146\u0161, skald\u012bja malku, raka d\u0101rz\u0101 zemi,\u00a0 p\u0101rn\u0113s\u0101ja akme\u0146us un pat iznesa samazgas. Daudz rei\u017eu citi m\u016bki vi\u0146u apvainoja un sita vi\u0146u, bet inoks Filipps\u00a0 nekad neie\u013caunoj\u0101s un ar prieku p\u0101rnesa visu apspie\u0161anu. Kad igumens vi\u0146am lika kalpot virtuv\u0113, vi\u0146\u0161 l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgi br\u0101\u013cu lab\u0101, iekurin\u0101ja uguni un skald\u012bja malku.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

    \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ir patiesi l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs, – raksta sirdsskaidrais S\u012brijas \u012azaks,- tas, esot apvainots, neizr\u0101da savu neapmierin\u0101t\u012bbu\u00a0 un neko nesaka savai aizst\u0101v\u012bbai, bet pie\u0146em apmelojumu k\u0101 \u012bsten\u012bbu, necen\u0161oties cilv\u0113kus p\u0101rliecin\u0101t, ka vi\u0146\u0161 ir apmelots, bet l\u016bdz piedo\u0161anu. Tu dom\u0101 par sevi, ka tev\u012b ir l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba. Bet citi pa\u0161i sevi aps\u016bdz, bet tu, pat citu aps\u016bdz\u0113ts, to nepanes un uzskati sevi par l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgu. Ja gribi uzzin\u0101t, vai tu esi l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs, tad p\u0101rbaudi sevi teiktaj\u0101: vai tu neapj\u016bc, kad tevi apvaino?\u201d<\/span><\/p>

    Da\u017ei taisnie past\u0101v\u012bgai l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas att\u012bst\u012bbai sev\u012b cent\u0101s vienm\u0113r sev blakus tur\u0113t cilv\u0113ku, kur\u0161 vi\u0146us pazemotu.<\/span><\/p>

    Staricai Pelagejai Ivanovnai, sirdsskaidr\u0101 Serafima Diejevas m\u016b\u0137e\u0146u gar\u012bg\u0101s audzin\u0101\u0161anas p\u0101r\u0146\u0113m\u0113jai, bija pielikta \u013coti skarba paklaus\u012bbniece- Matrona. Ivanovna, kura bija pa\u0146\u0113musi uz sevi Kristus d\u0113\u013c \u0123e\u0137a varo\u0146darbu, pirmos savas dz\u012bves gadus Diejev\u0101 uzved\u0101s \u013coti nemier\u012bgi, bija k\u0101 nepr\u0101t\u012bga, skraid\u012bja pa klosteri un meta akme\u0146us logos. Par to visu Matrona vi\u0146u sita tik stipri, ka beigu beig\u0101s Diejevas m\u0101sas to neiztur\u0113ja un izpras\u012bja igumenei atbr\u012bvot Matronu no sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgas uzraudz\u012b\u0161anas. Tad Pelageju Ivanovnu pieskat\u012bja labest\u012bga un l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bga meitene Varvara. Ta\u010du \u0161\u0101da nomai\u0146a nepatika sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgajai: vi\u0146ai tika at\u0146emta \u0101r\u0113j\u0101 pazemo\u0161ana! Pelageja Ivanovna visadi cent\u0101s tikt va\u013c\u0101 no l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bg\u0101s Varvaras un beigu beig\u0101s vi\u0146ai tas izdev\u0101s.<\/span><\/p>

    Protams, cilv\u0113kiem, kuri ar gr\u016bt\u012bb\u0101m iztur s\u012bkus apvainojumus, pat nav iesp\u0113jams saprast, no kurienes sm\u0113l\u0101s sp\u0113kus saviem varo\u0146darbiem taisnie, l\u012bdz\u012bgie Pelagejai Ivanovnai. \u0160\u012b nosl\u0113puma aizsegu atkl\u0101j k\u0101da l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bga stareca st\u0101sts, kur\u0161 k\u0101dreiz tika pak\u013cauts sodam un negodam. Kauna cie\u0161anas laik\u0101 \u201ep\u0113k\u0161\u0146i es sajutu,- atcer\u0113j\u0101s starecs,- vis\u0101 man\u0101 \u0137ermen\u012b bija liels karstums un kaut k\u0101ds v\u0101rdos neizsak\u0101ms pamirums, p\u0113c k\u0101 p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i sird\u012b iedeg\u0101s v\u0113l\u0113\u0161an\u0101s sa\u0146emt visas tautas nosod\u012bjumu un sodu no bendes pils\u0113tas laukum\u0101 savu gr\u0113ku d\u0113\u013c. Uz sejas par\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s ies\u0101rtums; neaprakst\u0101ms prieks un saldums visu mani ap\u0146\u0113ma, no t\u0101 es divas ned\u0113\u013cas biju saj\u016bsm\u0101, it k\u0101 \u0101rpus sevis. Tad es ar skaidr\u012bbu un prec\u012bzi sapratu, ka sv\u0113t\u0101 l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba ir mok\u0101s, savienojum\u0101 ar Dievi\u0161\u0137o m\u012blest\u012bbu un nevar\u0113ju pies\u0101tin\u0101ties ne ar k\u0101diem n\u0101ves sodiem.\u00a0 Mocek\u013ci pie\u0146\u0113ma smagus n\u0101ves sodus k\u0101 d\u0101vanas, k\u0101 v\u0113su atspirdzin\u0101jumu, kas apmierina vi\u0146os iedegu\u0161os v\u0113lmi p\u0113c l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas. L\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba ir neizskaidrojama Dieva sv\u0113t\u012bba, nesaprotami sasniedzamam tikai ar dv\u0113seles gar\u012bgu saj\u016btu\u201d.<\/span><\/p>

    V\u0113lme sa\u0146emt \u0101r\u0113jus p\u0101ridar\u012bjumus taisnajiem bija tik liela, ka vi\u0146i deva tiem priek\u0161roku attiec\u012bb\u0101 pret pasaules priekiem un baud\u0101m.<\/span><\/p>

    K\u0101du reizi Perejaslav\u013cas b\u012bskaps Silvestrs\u00a0 izst\u0101st\u012bja k\u0146azam Potemkinam par augsti gar\u012bgo stareca\u00a0 ierom\u016bka Kleopas dz\u012bvi. Gai\u0161ais k\u0146azs, v\u0113loties vi\u0146u redz\u0113t, aizs\u016bt\u012bja p\u0113c ask\u0113ta savu karieti. P\u0113c neilga laika starp m\u016bku un slaveno augstmani notika saruna. Kleopa \u013coti patika Potemkinam. Gai\u0161\u012bba pat v\u0113l\u0113j\u0101s iepaz\u012bstin\u0101t vi\u0146u ar valdnieci imperatori, ta\u010du satrecs uzskat\u012bja par lab\u0101ku \u0101tr\u0101k doties uz savu Ieve\u0161anas klosteri.\u00a0 Pa ce\u013cam\u00a0 uzbruka zald\u0101ts un ne\u017e\u0113l\u012bgi vi\u0146u piek\u0101va. Oficieris, kuru Kleopa pazina, to redz\u0113ja un grib\u0113ja zald\u0101tu sod\u012bt, bet starecs vi\u0146u pierun\u0101ja:<\/span><\/p>

    • Neaiztieciet zald\u0101tu- Dievs pav\u0113l\u0113ja! Kleopa, nelielies! Brauci kariet\u0113! Biji galm\u0101! \u00a0<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

      \u00a0Pieredz\u0113ju\u0161ais gar\u012bgais t\u0113vs, starecs Kleopa uzman\u012bgi sekoja sava klostera iem\u012btnieku gar\u012bgajam st\u0101voklim un dar\u012bja visu, kas nepiecie\u0161ams, lai atrisin\u0101tu vi\u0146u iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101s probl\u0113mas. K\u0101du reizi k\u0101ds paklaus\u012bbnieks pazi\u0146oja, ka piedz\u012bvojis br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgu redz\u0113jumu. T\u0113vs Kleopa lika citiem m\u016bkiem vi\u0146u sar\u0101t. Paklaus\u012bbnieks, nesp\u0113jot iztur\u0113t noniecin\u0101\u0161anu, samulsa, atn\u0101ca pie stareca un teica:<\/span><\/p>

      • Es nevaru dz\u012bvot: mani apvaino!<\/span><\/li>
      • K\u0101 gan tu saki, ka esi redz\u0113jis redz\u0113jumu, bet nesp\u0113j iztur\u0113t?- jaut\u0101ja starecs. \u2013 Tu, br\u0101li, liekas esi apm\u0101n\u0101. Likt zem galvas akmeni, gav\u0113t, gul\u0113t uz kailas zemes- tas ir tuk\u0161i. \u201eIem\u0101cieties no Manis, jo esmu sird\u012b kautrs un l\u0113nprat\u012bgs\u201d- teica Dievs, bet br\u012bnumi un par\u0101d\u012bbas- tas nav oblig\u0101ti.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

        L\u012bdz\u012bg\u0101 veid\u0101 ieroshim\u016bks Optinas \u013bevs m\u0101c\u012bja savus m\u0101cek\u013cus, kuri da\u017ereiz iekrita saj\u016bsmin\u0101t\u0101 sap\u0146ain\u012bb\u0101. \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

        Optin\u0101 bija k\u0101ds br\u0101lis, kur\u0161 bie\u017ei uzm\u0101c\u0101s t\u0113vam \u013bevamar l\u016bgumu at\u013caut vi\u0146am n\u0113s\u0101t va\u017eas. Starecs, kur\u0161 prson\u012bgi bija no\u0146\u0113mis va\u017eas no daudziem saviem gar\u012bgajiem b\u0113rniem, ilgu laiku skaidroja br\u0101lim, ka gl\u0101b\u0161ana nav va\u017e\u0101s. Beidzot, v\u0113loties vi\u0146u p\u0101rm\u0101c\u012bt, t\u0113vs \u013bevs pasauca klostera kal\u0113ju un teica vi\u0146am: \u201eKad pie tevis atn\u0101ks t\u0101ds br\u0101lis un l\u016bgs uztais\u012bt vi\u0146am va\u017eas, iedod vi\u0146am labu p\u013cauku\u201d.<\/span><\/p>

        P\u0113c neilga laika br\u0101lis k\u0101rt\u0113jo reizi uzm\u0101c\u0101s t\u0113vam \u013bevam un sadzird\u0113ja no vi\u0146a:<\/span><\/p>

        • Nu ej, ej pie kal\u0113ja, pal\u016bdz vi\u0146am uztais\u012bt tev va\u017eas.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

          Br\u0101lis ar prieku aizskr\u0113ja pie kal\u0113ja un v\u0113rs\u0101s pie vi\u0146a:<\/span><\/p>

          • Ba\u0137u\u0161ka sv\u0113t\u012bja tev uztais\u012bt man va\u017eas.<\/span><\/li>
          • K\u0101das tev va\u017eas?- noteica darb\u0101 aiz\u0146emtais kal\u0113js un ar stipru roku iedeva p\u013cauku sap\u0146ot\u0101jam. Nesagaidot t\u0101du lietas virz\u012bbu, br\u0101lis nesp\u0113ja paciest apvainojumu un no savas puses atbild\u0113ja kal\u0113jam ar to pa\u0161u, p\u0113c tam abi g\u0101ja uz tiesu pie stareca. Kal\u0113jam t\u016bl\u012bt pat tika piedots. Bet br\u0101lim, kur\u0161 v\u0113l\u0113j\u0101s n\u0113s\u0101t va\u017eas, starecs teica:<\/span><\/li>
          • Kur tu lien n\u0113sat va\u017eas, ka pat vienu p\u013cauku nevari paciest!<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

            Stareci, nomierinot savus paklaus\u012bbniekus ar \u0101r\u0113ju aizsk\u0101rumu, cent\u0101s vi\u0146iem par\u0101d\u012bt visu kritu\u0161\u0101s cilv\u0113ces dabas samait\u0101t\u012bbu. Vi\u0146i praks\u0113 atv\u0113ra vi\u0146u skatienam gribas v\u0101jumu, sapr\u0101ta tuvredz\u012bbu un sirds kaisl\u012bgumu. Stareci uzlika sev uzdevumu p\u0101rliecin\u0101t savus b\u0113rnus ne\u0146emt pirms laika gar\u012bgus varo\u0146darbus, kas p\u0101rsniedz vi\u0146u sp\u0113kus, bet prec\u012bzi izpild\u012bt Eva\u0146\u0123\u0113liju bau\u0161\u013cus. Vi\u0146i zin\u0101ja, ka \u0161\u0137ietamie pan\u0101kumi lielaj\u0101\u00a0 gar\u012bgaj\u0101s nodarb\u0113s var iesviest nenor\u016bd\u012bt\u0101s m\u0101cek\u013cu dv\u0113seles lepn\u012bb\u0101, kur ie\u0161ana Kristus bau\u0161\u013cu ce\u013cos oblig\u0101ti noved\u012bs vinus pie l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas. Sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgi ir tie, kuri apg\u016bst\u00a0 starecu pam\u0101c\u012bbas! Ta\u010du vienm\u0113r ir biju\u0161i \u013caudis, par kuriem ir sast\u0101d\u012bta paruna: \u201eKo nevar celt, to nevar nest\u201d.<\/span><\/p>

            Optinas tuksne\u0161a fili\u0101l\u0113 divdesmit piecus gadus dz\u012bvoja paklaus\u012bbnieks Stefans. Vi\u0146\u0161 bija n\u0101cis no bag\u0101tas Kurskas tirgot\u0101ju dzimtas. Pasaul\u0113 vi\u0146am bija piekl\u0101j\u012bgs kapit\u0101ls un divst\u0101vu m\u0101ja. Iest\u0101joties kloster\u012b v\u0113l pavisam jaunam, Stefans daudzu paklaus\u012bbnieka gadu gait\u0101 bija ieguvis br\u0101\u013cu cie\u0146u un bija pat pietuvin\u0101ts starecam Ambrosijam. M\u012blot gar\u012bgo las\u0101mvielu, vi\u0146\u0161 \u012bpa\u0161i aizr\u0101v\u0101s ar sv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101ja J\u0101\u0146a Zeltamutes darbu stud\u0113\u0161anu. Sast\u0101d\u012bjis no sv\u0113t\u0101 darbiem izteicienu apkopojumu, Stefans izdeva to par saviem l\u012bdzek\u013ciem bez klostera priek\u0161niec\u012bbas sv\u0113t\u012bbas. Tas, protams, no paklaus\u012bbnieka puses bija Optinas noteikumu p\u0101rk\u0101pums, jo kloster\u012b l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba br\u0101\u013ciem tika m\u0101c\u012bta, atmetot vis\u0101 savu gribu un piln\u012bb\u0101 paklausot stareciem. T\u0101d\u0113\u013c Stefana pa\u0161a gribas r\u012bc\u012bba nepalika nepaman\u012bta. Klostera priek\u0161nieks\u00a0 arhimandr\u012bts Isakijs pasauca pie sevis paklaus\u012bbnieku un, nor\u0101dot uz jaunizdoto gr\u0101matu, pajaut\u0101ja vi\u0146am:<\/span><\/p>

            • Kas tas ir?- Mans.- Bet kur tu dz\u012bvo? \u2013Fili\u0101l\u0113.- Es zinu, ka fili\u0101l\u0113. Pie k\u0101 tu sa\u0146\u0113mi sv\u0113t\u012bbu izdot?<\/span><\/li>
            • Pats izdevu,- atbild\u0113ja Stefans. \u2013Nu, ja \u201epats\u201d, tad lai pie mums p\u0113c tavas gr\u0101matas pat nesmar\u017eo. Saprati? Ej!- stingri teica t\u0113vs Isakijs.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

              Stefans tik \u013coti sadusmoj\u0101s uz priek\u0161nieku par\u00a0 r\u0101jienu, ka pat nepateica par sav\u0101m dusm\u0101m gar\u012bgajam t\u0113vam. Kad pien\u0101ca laiks iesv\u0113t\u012bt paklaus\u012bbnieku m\u016bku k\u0101rt\u0101, klostera priek\u0161niec\u012bba nol\u0113ma d\u0113\u013c pa\u0161apzin\u012bguma nesteigties iet\u0113rpt Stefanu mantij\u0101. Ta\u010du ar\u012b tas vi\u0146u neapskaidroja. Vi\u0146\u0161 v\u0113l vair\u0101k apvainoj\u0101s un pameta klosteri, ne par ko neuzskatot savu divdesmitpiecgad\u012bgo varo\u0146darbu. Stefans apmet\u0101s sav\u0101 dzimten\u0113 sav\u0101 lielaj\u0101 m\u0101j\u0101 kur\u0101 p\u0113c pieciem gadiem nomira.<\/span><\/p>

              \u0160is piem\u0113rs uzskat\u0101mi ilustr\u0113 to paties\u012bbu, ka apvainojuma iedarb\u012bba uz mums nav atkar\u012bga no apvainojuma rakstura vai apvainot\u0101ja \u013caunuma pak\u0101pes, bet no m\u016bsu gar\u012bg\u0101 noska\u0146ojuma. Piev\u0113rsiet uzman\u012bbu: arhimandr\u012bts Isakijs nepavisam neapvainoja Stefanu, bet izteica vi\u0146am stingru r\u0101jienu vi\u0146a pa\u0161a lab\u0101. Ta\u010du reakcija nepavisam nebija paklaus\u012bga.<\/span><\/p>

              Ja m\u0113s \u0101r\u0113ju aizsk\u0101rumu laik\u0101 pazaud\u0113jam paciet\u012bbu, tad par\u0101dam savu gar\u012bgo v\u0101jumu. \u0160aj\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b no m\u016bsu sirds pace\u013cas t\u0101s dzi\u013cumos eso\u0161\u0101 lepn\u012bba. Ja m\u0113s patiesi sevi uzskat\u0101m par pa\u0161iem gr\u0113c\u012bg\u0101kajiem un slikt\u0101kajiem Dieva kalpiem, tad aizsk\u0101rumi un apvainojumi m\u016bs nevar apb\u0113din\u0101t. Tie\u0161i otr\u0101di, tie atnes mums prieku, jo pateicoties tiem notiek gr\u0113ku att\u012br\u012b\u0161ana un m\u016bsu tr\u016bkumu labo\u0161ana.<\/span><\/p>

              \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ien\u012bst apkaunojumu, ien\u012bst l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu\u201d<\/strong><\/span><\/p>

              Abba Dorofejs rakst\u012bja: \u201eTici, ka apkaunojums un ievainojums ir z\u0101les, kas arst\u0113 tavas dv\u0113seles lepn\u012bbu, l\u016bdzies par tiem, kuri tevi apvaino k\u0101 par tavas dv\u0113seles \u0101rstiem, esot p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, ka, tas, kur\u0161 ien\u012bst apkaunojumu, ien\u012bst l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, kur\u0161 b\u0113g no vi\u0146a apvainot\u0101jiem, tas b\u0113g no l\u0113n\u012bbas\u201d. <\/strong><\/span><\/p>

              V\u0113rt\u012bga pam\u0101c\u012bba. Ja m\u0113s ieklaus\u012bsimies \u0161ajos v\u0101rdos, tad visus m\u016bsu nedraugus, apvainot\u0101jus un atmaskot\u0101jus uztversim k\u0101 lab\u0101kos draugus. Ta\u010du nelaime ir taj\u0101, ka m\u0113s, panesot apvainojumus ar paciet\u012bbu, bie\u017ei sirds dzi\u013cumos izj\u016btam nepatiku pret apvainot\u0101jiem. T\u0101d\u0113\u013c sv\u0113tie starci, labi zinot kritu\u0161\u0101s cilv\u0113cisk\u0101s b\u016bt\u012bbas psiholo\u0123iju, vienm\u0113r uzman\u012bgi un gudri apvainoja savus gar\u012bgos b\u0113rnus. K\u0101du reizi sirdsskaidrais Karagandas Sebastians, sarun\u0101joties par cilv\u0113ku tikumiem, teica: \u201e\u0160os cilv\u0113kus nevar aiztikt, vi\u0146i lepn\u012bbas d\u0113\u013c nepanes\u012bs ne aizr\u0101d\u012bjumu, ne r\u0101jienu. Bet citus, p\u0113c vi\u0146u l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas, var\u201d.<\/span><\/p>

              Da\u017ereiz starecs citu kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 p\u0101rmeta k\u0101dam no saviem l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgajiem m\u0101cek\u013ciem, lai pam\u0101c\u012btu tos, kuriem nevar tie\u0161i pateikt par p\u0101rk\u0101pumiem un tr\u016bkumiem. T\u0101dus vi\u0146\u0161 pats neatmaskoja un citiem neat\u013c\u0101va, bet gaid\u012bja, pacieta un l\u016bdz\u0101s, kam\u0113r cilv\u0113ks pats nev\u0113rs\u0101s pie Dieva un gar\u012bg\u0101 t\u0113va ar gr\u0113ku no\u017e\u0113lu. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>

              Bija gad\u012bjumi, kad sirdskaidrais Sebastians lika vec\u0101kajiem l\u016bgt piedo\u0161anu jaun\u0101kajiem, apvainotos nomierin\u0101ja, bet apvainot\u0101jus aizst\u0101v\u0113ja. Vi\u0146a pieredz\u0113ju\u0161ie m\u0101cek\u013ci priec\u0101j\u0101s par \u0161\u012bm l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas stund\u0101m, saprotot, ka vis\u0101s starecs darb\u012bb\u0101s sl\u0113pjas gar\u012bga gudr\u012bba.<\/span><\/p>

              \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ar prieku var paciest apvainojumu,- rakst\u012bja sirdsskaidrais S\u012brijas \u012azaks,- pat, ja uz rokas ir l\u012bdzek\u013ci to novirz\u012bt, tas ir sa\u0146\u0113mis iepriecin\u0101jumu no Dieva tic\u012bbas Vi\u0146am d\u0113\u013c. Un kur\u0161 ar sirds gudr\u012bbu pacie\u0161 pret vi\u0146u v\u0113rst\u0101s aps\u016bdz\u012bbas, tas ir sasniedzis piln\u012bbu, par vi\u0146u br\u012bn\u0101s e\u0146\u0123e\u013ci. Jo nav cita tikuma tik augsta un gr\u016bta\u201d.<\/span><\/p>

              To zinot, stareci caur aizsk\u0101rumiem veda savus gar\u0101 stipros m\u0101cek\u013cus uz piln\u012bbu, tai pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 sarg\u0101jot vaj\u0101kos.<\/span><\/p>

              Vadot savu gar\u012bgo b\u0113rnu dz\u012bves, Belgradas starecs shiarhimandr\u012bts\u00a0 Grigorijs m\u012bl\u0113ja dot pazem\u012bbas stundas. Par\u0101ja citu kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 par gr\u0113kiem, ko cilv\u0113ks nav izdar\u012bjis un skat\u0101s uz reakciju-apvainosies vai n\u0113? Starecs m\u0101c\u012bja: \u201eL\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba- visu tikumu pamats. Kad v\u0101rpa ir tuk\u0161a, m\u0113t\u0101jas uz vis\u0101m pus\u0113m, bet, kad piepild\u012bts ar graudiem, noliecas un v\u0113tras vi\u0146u vairs nebaida. T\u0101 ar\u012b cilv\u0113ks: tuk\u0161s \u00a0m\u0113t\u0101jas \u0161urpu turpu, bet l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs visos p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumos nevar savainoties\u201d. Daudzi no tiem, kuri ir izg\u0101ju\u0161i shiarhimandr\u012bta\u00a0 Grigorija skolu, v\u0113l\u0101k ir k\u013cuvu\u0161i par igumeniem,\u00a0 arhimandr\u012btiem un b\u012bskapiem.<\/span><\/p>

              Ja m\u0113s cen\u0161amies ieg\u016bt l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, mums visu laiku j\u0101l\u016bdz Dievam pal\u012bdz\u012bba. Ta\u010du ir j\u0101atceras abba Dorofeja pam\u0101c\u012bba: \u201eKatram, kur\u0161 l\u016bdz Dievu : \u201eKungs, dod man l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu,\u201d- , j\u0101saprot, ka vi\u0146\u0161 l\u016bdz Dievu, lai Vi\u0146\u0161 ats\u016bta k\u0101du apvainot\u0101ju. T\u0101tad, ja k\u0101ds vi\u0146u apvaino, tad ar\u012b vi\u0146am pa\u0161am sevi j\u0101pazemina un dom\u0101s sevi j\u0101noniev\u0101, lai taj\u0101 laik\u0101, kad cits ierobe\u017eo vi\u0146u no \u0101rpuses, vi\u0146\u0161 pats sevi samierina no iek\u0161puses\u201d. T\u0101du \u0101r\u0113j\u0101s pazemin\u0101\u0161anas savienojumu ar iek\u0161\u0113jo pa\u0161pazemin\u0101\u0161anos var atrast sirdsskaidr\u0101 Optinas Mak\u0101rija dz\u012bvesst\u0101st\u0101.<\/span><\/p>

              Optinas tuksne\u0161a priek\u0161nieks arhimandr\u012bts Mozus k\u0101du reizi pajaut\u0101ja sterecam ieroshim\u016bkam Makarijam pa\u0146emt savai gar\u012bgai vad\u012bbai jauniesv\u0113t\u012btos m\u016bkus. T\u0113vs Makarijs priek\u0161nieka l\u016bgumu uztv\u0113ra k\u0101 pav\u0113li un atbild\u0113ja paklanoties. P\u0113c tam vi\u0146\u0161 g\u0101ja pie sava gar\u012bg\u0101 t\u0113va ieroshim\u016bka \u013beva, kur\u0161 atrad\u0101s k\u0101 vienm\u0113r daudzu gar\u012bgo b\u0113rnu ielenkum\u0101 un pazem\u012bgi past\u0101st\u012bja\u00a0 vi\u0146am par savu sarunu ar priek\u0161nieku.<\/span><\/p>

              • K\u0101d\u0113\u013c tu piekriti?- ar nobriedu\u0161u bardz\u012bbu pajaut\u0101ja t\u0113vs Makarijs.<\/span><\/li>
              • J\u0101, gandr\u012bz piekritu, jeb lab\u0101k teikt, nevar\u0113ju atteikt,- atbild\u0113ja t\u0113vs Makarijs.<\/span><\/li>
              • J\u0101, tas ir rakstur\u012bgi tavai lepn\u012bbai,- teica ieroshim\u016bks \u013bevs, bet p\u0113c tam, pie\u0146\u0113mis bargu izskatu, s\u0101ka ska\u013ci cilv\u0113ku kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 p\u0101rmest savam paz\u012bstamajam gar\u012bgajam d\u0113lam.<\/span><\/li>
              • T\u0113vs Makarijs st\u0101v\u0113ja ar noliektu galvu, pazem\u012bgi klan\u012bj\u0101s un periodiski atk\u0101rtoja:<\/span><\/li>
              • -Vain\u012bgs, piedodiet Dieva d\u0113\u013c, ba\u0137u\u0161ka!<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

                Visi kl\u0101teso\u0161ie ar dievbij\u012bgu apbr\u012bnu k\u0101du laiku nov\u0113roja, k\u0101 viens liels starecs pazemo otru ne maz\u0101k lielu starecu. Kad t\u0113vs \u013bevs apklusa, starecs Makarijs, paklanoties vi\u0146am l\u012bdz zemei kautr\u012bgi izdvesa:<\/span><\/p>

                • Piedodiet, ba\u0137u\u0161ka. Sv\u0113t\u012bjiet atteikties?<\/span><\/li>
                • – K\u0101 atteikties? Pats uzpras\u012bjies un tagad atteikties. N\u0113, tagad nevar atteikties, darbs ir izdar\u012bts,- teica t\u0113vs \u013bevs, kur\u0161 netais\u012bj\u0101s at\u0146emt jaunajiem m\u016bkiem pieredz\u0113ju\u0161u gar\u012bgo t\u0113vu, tikai izmantojot gad\u012bjumu, lai par\u0101d\u012btu saviem gar\u012bgajiem b\u0113rniem patiesas pazem\u012bbas piem\u0113ru.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

                  K\u0101 sa\u0146emt pazemojumus no jaun\u0101kajiem un padotajiem? Audzinot pazem\u012bbu citos, sv\u0113tie personiskajai pilnveido\u0161anai nepalaida gar\u0101m iesp\u0113jas ar\u012b pa\u0161iem sa\u0146emt pazemojumus no saviem paklaus\u012bbniekiem un m\u0101cek\u013ciem.<\/span><\/p>

                  K\u0101du reizi Zosimas tuksnes\u012b ieroshim\u016bks Aleksejs, vis\u0101 Krievij\u0101 paz\u012bstams gar\u012bgais t\u0113vs, sarun\u0101jas ar atbrauku\u0161u studentu no Gar\u012bg\u0101s Akad\u0113mijas. Stareca celles pal\u012bgs t\u0113vs Mak\u0101rijs not\u012br\u012bjis patv\u0101ri, to piel\u0113ja, aizdedzin\u0101ja un teica:<\/span><\/p>

                  • Es ie\u0161u p\u0113c \u016bdens, bet j\u016bs, ba\u0137u\u0161ka, skatieties, lai patv\u0101ris neaizietu.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

                    Starecs Aleksijs sarunas laik\u0101 ar studentu aizmirsa par patv\u0101ri un tas no stipras v\u0101r\u012b\u0161an\u0101s viss appl\u016bda. T\u0113vs Makarijs, atgriezies ar \u016bdeni, ar p\u0101rmetumu pateica:<\/span><\/p>

                    • Ba\u0137u\u0161ka, pat to nevar\u0113j\u0101t izpild\u012bt! Tagad visi mani p\u016bli\u0146i ir velti, bet es pus dienas t\u012br\u012bju patv\u0101ri!<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

                      Sadzirdot celles pal\u012bga p\u0101rmetumu, starecs Aleksijs nokrita pie vi\u0146a k\u0101j\u0101m un s\u0101ka l\u016bgt piedo\u0161anu:<\/span><\/p>

                      • Piedod man, t\u0113vs Makarij, es izdar\u012bju slikti.<\/span><\/li><\/ul>

                        Neskatoties uz paz\u012bstama stareca no\u017e\u0113lu, t\u0113vs Makarijs v\u0113l ilgi r\u016bga.<\/span><\/p>

                        Izr\u0101dot uzman\u012bbu un cie\u0146u \u013caud\u012bm, kuri daudz kur ir mums l\u012bdz\u012bgi vai kuri ie\u0146em sabiedr\u012bb\u0101 augst\u0101ku st\u0101vokli par mums, m\u0113s vair\u0101k izpild\u0101m savu pien\u0101kumu nevis izr\u0101d\u0101m l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu.Patiesa sirds l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba atkl\u0101jas tad, kad m\u0113s p\u0113c sv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101ja J\u0101\u0146a Zeltamutes v\u0101rdiem\u00a0 \u201e piek\u0101pjamies tiem, kuri ac\u012bm redzami ir zem\u0101k par mums, un dodam priek\u0161roku tiem, kuri tiek uzskat\u012bti par slikt\u0101kiem. Ta\u010du, ja m\u0113s b\u016bsim apdom\u012bgi, tad neuzskat\u012bsim nevienu par zem\u0101ku, bet visiem cilv\u0113kiem dosim priek\u0161roku attiec\u012bb\u0101 pret sevi. Tie\u0161i taj\u0101 ir sirds gudr\u012bba , ka tas, kuram ir ar ko b\u016bt p\u0101r\u0101kam, pazemo, pazemina sevi un uzvedas pietic\u012bgi. Tie\u0161i tad vi\u0146\u0161 non\u0101k paties\u0101\u00a0 augstum\u0101 p\u0113c Dieva apsol\u012bjuma, Kur\u0161 saka: \u201e sevi pazemino\u0161ais paaugstin\u0101sies\u201d.<\/span>
                        K\u0101du reizi vad\u012bt kop\u012bgo dievkalpojumu Sv\u0113t\u0101s Trej\u0101d\u012bbas Kijevas alu Lavras bazn\u012bc\u0101 bija noz\u012bm\u0113ts starecs igumens Agapits. Uz dievnamu vi\u0146\u0161 atn\u0101ca kop\u0101 ar saviem l\u012bdzkalpot\u0101jiem noteikt\u0101 laik\u0101. K\u0101ds sv\u0113tkalpot\u0101js kaut k\u0101da iemesla d\u0113\u013c neierad\u0101s. Vi\u0146\u0161 bija ierom\u016bks, kur\u0161 p\u0113c iesv\u0113t\u012b\u0161anas k\u0101du laiku atrad\u0101s t\u0113va Agapita gar\u012bg\u0101 vad\u012bb\u0101. Tagad vi\u0146\u0161 ie\u0146\u0113ma amatu klostera administr\u0101cij\u0101. Nesagaid\u012bju\u0161i ierom\u016bku, dievkalpojumu s\u0101ka bez vi\u0146a. P\u0113c k\u0101da laika ierom\u016bks tom\u0113r ierad\u0101s dievnam\u0101 un \u013coti apvainoj\u0101s par to, ka vi\u0146u nesagaid\u012bja. Pie tam igumenam Agapitam vi\u0146\u0161 izteica diezgan rupju r\u0101jienu. Redzot ierom\u016bka dusmas un nemaz nerun\u0101jot pret\u012b, starecs paklan\u012bj\u0101s vi\u0146am l\u012bdz zemei un l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgi l\u016bdza piedo\u0161anu.<\/span><\/p>

                        Starecs Agapits var\u0113ja viegli iztur\u0113t nekaun\u012bgo ierom\u016bka uzved\u012bbu t\u0101d\u0113\u013c, ka, ne skatoties uz savu k\u0101rtu, nopelniem un vecumu, uzskat\u012bja vi\u0146u vis\u0101s jom\u0101s par lab\u0101ku par sevi. Ja m\u0113s ne tikai dom\u0101s, bet ar visu savu b\u016bt\u012bbu notic\u0113sim, ka citi cilv\u0113ki ir par mums lab\u0101ki, tad nekad neapvainosimies par jebk\u0101diem apvainojumiem no vi\u0146u puses. M\u0113s tuv\u0101kajos redz\u0113sim visupirms Dieva t\u0113lu un l\u012bdz\u012bbu, bet nesal\u012bdzin\u0101sim m\u016bsu un vi\u0146u st\u0101vokli sabiedr\u012bb\u0101.<\/span><\/p>

                        1. gadsimt\u0101 Atona kaln\u0101 dz\u012bvoja ierom\u016bks A\u0146ikita, pasaul\u0113 k\u0146azs \u0160irinskis- \u0160afmatovs. Atst\u0101jis Krievij\u0101 savas sen\u0101s dzimtas slavu un augsto st\u0101vokli sabiedr\u012bb\u0101, vi\u0146\u0161 gl\u0101ba savu dv\u0113seli Dievm\u0101tes zemes valst\u012bb\u0101. K\u0101du reizi, veicot sv\u0113tce\u013cojumu pa j\u016bru, starecs A\u0146ikita nol\u0113ma nak\u0161\u0146ot kloster\u012b Patmosa sal\u0101. Pametot ku\u0123i, vi\u0146\u0161 pal\u016bdza savam paklaus\u012bbniekam \u0145ikitam, kur\u0161 palika uz ku\u0123a, no r\u012bta t\u0101 agr\u0101k atnest sm\u0113ri. Nakts pag\u0101ja mier\u012bgi. No r\u012bta \u0145ikita neatn\u0101ca. Tuvoj\u0101s pusdienas laiks un biju\u0161ais k\u0146azs s\u0101ka paust neizpratni par paklaus\u012bbnieka neiera\u0161anos. P\u0113s ilg\u0101ka laika \u0145ikita beidzot par\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s. Pa\u0146emot no vi\u0146a sm\u0113ri, starecs Anikita atz\u012bm\u0113ja:<\/span><\/li><\/ol>

                          \u00a0– K\u0101 tu nebaidies Dieva, br\u0101li: redzi, es tev teicu sm\u0113ri atnest r\u012btausm\u0101, bet kad tu ierodies?<\/span><\/p>

                          – Tev nek\u0101di nevar izpatikt!- aizvainots izkliedza pakalpnieks, bet nepasp\u0113ja vi\u0146\u0161 pateikt v\u0113l kaut ko, kad tevs A\u0146ikita krita vi\u0146a priek\u0161\u0101 pie zemes un izdvesa:<\/span><\/p>

                          – Piedod man Dieva d\u0113\u013c. Es tevi, br\u0101li, esmu aizvainojis!<\/span><\/p>

                          Stareca l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba p\u0101rsteidza \u0145ikitu un ar\u012b vi\u0146\u0161 met\u0101s pie stareca k\u0101j\u0101m. Cits paklaus\u012bbnieks, kur\u0161 bija kl\u0101t \u0161aj\u0101 sc\u0113n\u0101, n\u0101kamais shim\u0146iks Gerontijs atcer\u0113j\u0101s, ka notieko\u0161ais tik liel\u0101 m\u0113r\u0101 vi\u0146u aizkustin\u0101ja, ka ar\u012b vi\u0146s met\u0101s pie t\u0113va A\u0146ikitas k\u0101j\u0101m un p\u0101rkl\u0101j\u0101s ar asar\u0101m, nesaprotot par ko raud k\u0101 b\u0113rns un k\u0101p\u0113c gu\u013c pie vecaj\u0101m k\u0101j\u0101m.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>

                          Kristietis, kur\u0161 savald\u012bs savu sirdi, p\u0101rst\u0101j v\u0113rt\u0113t savu st\u0101vokli citu \u013cau\u017eu vid\u016b un vairs nepiev\u0113r\u0161 uzman\u012bbu vi\u0146u rupj\u012bbai, uzbrukumiem un apmelojumiem. T\u0101ds cilv\u0113ks redz tikai sevi un, br\u012bnoties par savu zemiskumu, nodarbojas ar sevis labo\u0161anu.<\/span><\/p>

                          No teolo\u0123ijas kandid\u0101ta protoireja Vja\u010deslava Tulupova gr\u0101matas<\/span><\/p>

                          \u201eDiev\u012bbas iet\u0113rps vai par to, k\u0101 ieg\u016bt l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu\u201d<\/span><\/p>

                          Izdevniec\u012bba \u201eErce\u0146\u0123e\u013ca Mihaila dievnams\u201d, 2001 gads.<\/span><\/p>

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                          IEK\u0160\u0112J\u0100\u00a0 PA\u0160PAZEMIN\u0100\u0160AN\u0100S \u00a0 P\u0113c tam, kad m\u0113s ieg\u016bstam sirds gudru dom\u0101\u0161anas veidu un iem\u0101c\u0101mies l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgu uzved\u012bbu, mums ir nepiecie\u0161ams iziet cauri pa\u0161am atbild\u012bg\u0101kajam etapam ce\u013c\u0101 uz l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas tikuma ieg\u016b\u0161anu: caur \u0101r\u0113ju pazemin\u0101\u0161anos cilv\u0113ku priek\u0161\u0101. Tie\u0161i \u0161aj\u0101 etap\u0101 tiek p\u0101rbaud\u012bta un stiprin\u0101ta m\u016bsu l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba. Paz\u012bstamais teologs protoirejs Valent\u012bns Svencickis sarun\u0101 ar Sergeju Fudeli teica: L\u016bk, m\u0113s m\u0101c\u0101m par m\u012blest\u012bbu un l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, bet, ja mums autobus\u0101 k\u0101ds uzk\u0101pj uz k\u0101jas, m\u0113s t\u016bl\u012bt pat s\u0101kam cilv\u0113ku ien\u012bst. Var visu laiku dom\u0101t par savu niec\u012bbu Dieva priek\u0161\u0101, izskat\u012bties l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgam un m\u0101c\u0113t l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgi sarun\u0101ties ar cilv\u0113kiem, bet paties\u012bb\u0101 b\u016bt t\u0101lu no patiesas l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas, kas tiek kalta tikai ar \u0101r\u0113ju p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumu \u0101muru. To zinot, daudzi ask\u0113ti pa\u0161i cent\u0101s sevi r\u016bd\u012bt apvainojumu, apmelojumu un spaidu dzirnav\u0101s. T\u0101 Maskavas metropol\u012bts Filipps, esot no paz\u012bstamas\u00a0 baj\u0101ru Koli\u010devu dzimtas, tr\u012bsdesmit gadu vecum\u0101 atst\u0101ja dienestu cara galm\u0101 un slepeni aizg\u0101ja uz Solovecas klosteri. \u0160eit n\u0101kamais sv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101js, nosl\u0113pjot savu izcelsmi un k\u0101rtu, ar cent\u012bbu un sirds vienk\u0101r\u0161\u012bbu izpild\u012bja visu, ko vi\u0146am lika dar\u012bt. Vi\u0146\u0161, skald\u012bja malku, raka d\u0101rz\u0101 zemi,\u00a0 p\u0101rn\u0113s\u0101ja akme\u0146us un pat iznesa samazgas. Daudz rei\u017eu citi m\u016bki vi\u0146u apvainoja un sita vi\u0146u, bet inoks Filipps\u00a0 nekad neie\u013caunoj\u0101s un ar prieku p\u0101rnesa visu apspie\u0161anu. Kad igumens vi\u0146am lika kalpot virtuv\u0113, vi\u0146\u0161 l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgi br\u0101\u013cu lab\u0101, iekurin\u0101ja uguni un skald\u012bja malku.\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ir patiesi l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs, – raksta sirdsskaidrais S\u012brijas \u012azaks,- tas, esot apvainots, neizr\u0101da savu neapmierin\u0101t\u012bbu\u00a0 un neko nesaka savai aizst\u0101v\u012bbai, bet pie\u0146em apmelojumu k\u0101 \u012bsten\u012bbu, necen\u0161oties cilv\u0113kus p\u0101rliecin\u0101t, ka vi\u0146\u0161 ir apmelots, bet l\u016bdz piedo\u0161anu. Tu dom\u0101 par sevi, ka tev\u012b ir l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba. Bet citi pa\u0161i sevi aps\u016bdz, bet tu, pat citu aps\u016bdz\u0113ts, to nepanes un uzskati sevi par l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgu. Ja gribi uzzin\u0101t, vai tu esi l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs, tad p\u0101rbaudi sevi teiktaj\u0101: vai tu neapj\u016bc, kad tevi apvaino?\u201d Da\u017ei taisnie past\u0101v\u012bgai l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas att\u012bst\u012bbai sev\u012b cent\u0101s vienm\u0113r sev blakus tur\u0113t cilv\u0113ku, kur\u0161 vi\u0146us pazemotu. Staricai Pelagejai Ivanovnai, sirdsskaidr\u0101 Serafima Diejevas m\u016b\u0137e\u0146u gar\u012bg\u0101s audzin\u0101\u0161anas p\u0101r\u0146\u0113m\u0113jai, bija pielikta \u013coti skarba paklaus\u012bbniece- Matrona. Ivanovna, kura bija pa\u0146\u0113musi uz sevi Kristus d\u0113\u013c \u0123e\u0137a varo\u0146darbu, pirmos savas dz\u012bves gadus Diejev\u0101 uzved\u0101s \u013coti nemier\u012bgi, bija k\u0101 nepr\u0101t\u012bga, skraid\u012bja pa klosteri un meta akme\u0146us logos. Par to visu Matrona vi\u0146u sita tik stipri, ka beigu beig\u0101s Diejevas m\u0101sas to neiztur\u0113ja un izpras\u012bja igumenei atbr\u012bvot Matronu no sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgas uzraudz\u012b\u0161anas. Tad Pelageju Ivanovnu pieskat\u012bja labest\u012bga un l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bga meitene Varvara. Ta\u010du \u0161\u0101da nomai\u0146a nepatika sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgajai: vi\u0146ai tika at\u0146emta \u0101r\u0113j\u0101 pazemo\u0161ana! Pelageja Ivanovna visadi cent\u0101s tikt va\u013c\u0101 no l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bg\u0101s Varvaras un beigu beig\u0101s vi\u0146ai tas izdev\u0101s. Protams, cilv\u0113kiem, kuri ar gr\u016bt\u012bb\u0101m iztur s\u012bkus apvainojumus, pat nav iesp\u0113jams saprast, no kurienes sm\u0113l\u0101s sp\u0113kus saviem varo\u0146darbiem taisnie, l\u012bdz\u012bgie Pelagejai Ivanovnai. \u0160\u012b nosl\u0113puma aizsegu atkl\u0101j k\u0101da l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bga stareca st\u0101sts, kur\u0161 k\u0101dreiz tika pak\u013cauts sodam un negodam. Kauna cie\u0161anas laik\u0101 \u201ep\u0113k\u0161\u0146i es sajutu,- atcer\u0113j\u0101s starecs,- vis\u0101 man\u0101 \u0137ermen\u012b bija liels karstums un kaut k\u0101ds v\u0101rdos neizsak\u0101ms pamirums, p\u0113c k\u0101 p\u0113k\u0161\u0146i sird\u012b iedeg\u0101s v\u0113l\u0113\u0161an\u0101s sa\u0146emt visas tautas nosod\u012bjumu un sodu no bendes pils\u0113tas laukum\u0101 savu gr\u0113ku d\u0113\u013c. Uz sejas par\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s ies\u0101rtums; neaprakst\u0101ms prieks un saldums visu mani ap\u0146\u0113ma, no t\u0101 es divas ned\u0113\u013cas biju saj\u016bsm\u0101, it k\u0101 \u0101rpus sevis. Tad es ar skaidr\u012bbu un prec\u012bzi sapratu, ka sv\u0113t\u0101 l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba ir mok\u0101s, savienojum\u0101 ar Dievi\u0161\u0137o m\u012blest\u012bbu un nevar\u0113ju pies\u0101tin\u0101ties ne ar k\u0101diem n\u0101ves sodiem.\u00a0 Mocek\u013ci pie\u0146\u0113ma smagus n\u0101ves sodus k\u0101 d\u0101vanas, k\u0101 v\u0113su atspirdzin\u0101jumu, kas apmierina vi\u0146os iedegu\u0161os v\u0113lmi p\u0113c l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas. L\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba ir neizskaidrojama Dieva sv\u0113t\u012bba, nesaprotami sasniedzamam tikai ar dv\u0113seles gar\u012bgu saj\u016btu\u201d. V\u0113lme sa\u0146emt \u0101r\u0113jus p\u0101ridar\u012bjumus taisnajiem bija tik liela, ka vi\u0146i deva tiem priek\u0161roku attiec\u012bb\u0101 pret pasaules priekiem un baud\u0101m. K\u0101du reizi Perejaslav\u013cas b\u012bskaps Silvestrs\u00a0 izst\u0101st\u012bja k\u0146azam Potemkinam par augsti gar\u012bgo stareca\u00a0 ierom\u016bka Kleopas dz\u012bvi. Gai\u0161ais k\u0146azs, v\u0113loties vi\u0146u redz\u0113t, aizs\u016bt\u012bja p\u0113c ask\u0113ta savu karieti. P\u0113c neilga laika starp m\u016bku un slaveno augstmani notika saruna. Kleopa \u013coti patika Potemkinam. Gai\u0161\u012bba pat v\u0113l\u0113j\u0101s iepaz\u012bstin\u0101t vi\u0146u ar valdnieci imperatori, ta\u010du satrecs uzskat\u012bja par lab\u0101ku \u0101tr\u0101k doties uz savu Ieve\u0161anas klosteri.\u00a0 Pa ce\u013cam\u00a0 uzbruka zald\u0101ts un ne\u017e\u0113l\u012bgi vi\u0146u piek\u0101va. Oficieris, kuru Kleopa pazina, to redz\u0113ja un grib\u0113ja zald\u0101tu sod\u012bt, bet starecs vi\u0146u pierun\u0101ja: Neaiztieciet zald\u0101tu- Dievs pav\u0113l\u0113ja! Kleopa, nelielies! Brauci kariet\u0113! Biji galm\u0101! \u00a0 \u00a0Pieredz\u0113ju\u0161ais gar\u012bgais t\u0113vs, starecs Kleopa uzman\u012bgi sekoja sava klostera iem\u012btnieku gar\u012bgajam st\u0101voklim un dar\u012bja visu, kas nepiecie\u0161ams, lai atrisin\u0101tu vi\u0146u iek\u0161\u0113j\u0101s probl\u0113mas. K\u0101du reizi k\u0101ds paklaus\u012bbnieks pazi\u0146oja, ka piedz\u012bvojis br\u012bni\u0161\u0137\u012bgu redz\u0113jumu. T\u0113vs Kleopa lika citiem m\u016bkiem vi\u0146u sar\u0101t. Paklaus\u012bbnieks, nesp\u0113jot iztur\u0113t noniecin\u0101\u0161anu, samulsa, atn\u0101ca pie stareca un teica: Es nevaru dz\u012bvot: mani apvaino! K\u0101 gan tu saki, ka esi redz\u0113jis redz\u0113jumu, bet nesp\u0113j iztur\u0113t?- jaut\u0101ja starecs. \u2013 Tu, br\u0101li, liekas esi apm\u0101n\u0101. Likt zem galvas akmeni, gav\u0113t, gul\u0113t uz kailas zemes- tas ir tuk\u0161i. \u201eIem\u0101cieties no Manis, jo esmu sird\u012b kautrs un l\u0113nprat\u012bgs\u201d- teica Dievs, bet br\u012bnumi un par\u0101d\u012bbas- tas nav oblig\u0101ti. L\u012bdz\u012bg\u0101 veid\u0101 ieroshim\u016bks Optinas \u013bevs m\u0101c\u012bja savus m\u0101cek\u013cus, kuri da\u017ereiz iekrita saj\u016bsmin\u0101t\u0101 sap\u0146ain\u012bb\u0101. \u00a0\u00a0 Optin\u0101 bija k\u0101ds br\u0101lis, kur\u0161 bie\u017ei uzm\u0101c\u0101s t\u0113vam \u013bevamar l\u016bgumu at\u013caut vi\u0146am n\u0113s\u0101t va\u017eas. Starecs, kur\u0161 prson\u012bgi bija no\u0146\u0113mis va\u017eas no daudziem saviem gar\u012bgajiem b\u0113rniem, ilgu laiku skaidroja br\u0101lim, ka gl\u0101b\u0161ana nav va\u017e\u0101s. Beidzot, v\u0113loties vi\u0146u p\u0101rm\u0101c\u012bt, t\u0113vs \u013bevs pasauca klostera kal\u0113ju un teica vi\u0146am: \u201eKad pie tevis atn\u0101ks t\u0101ds br\u0101lis un l\u016bgs uztais\u012bt vi\u0146am va\u017eas, iedod vi\u0146am labu p\u013cauku\u201d. P\u0113c neilga laika br\u0101lis k\u0101rt\u0113jo reizi uzm\u0101c\u0101s t\u0113vam \u013bevam un sadzird\u0113ja no vi\u0146a: Nu ej, ej pie kal\u0113ja, pal\u016bdz vi\u0146am uztais\u012bt tev va\u017eas. Br\u0101lis ar prieku aizskr\u0113ja pie kal\u0113ja un v\u0113rs\u0101s pie vi\u0146a: Ba\u0137u\u0161ka sv\u0113t\u012bja tev uztais\u012bt man va\u017eas. K\u0101das tev va\u017eas?- noteica darb\u0101 aiz\u0146emtais kal\u0113js un ar stipru roku iedeva p\u013cauku sap\u0146ot\u0101jam. Nesagaidot t\u0101du lietas virz\u012bbu, br\u0101lis nesp\u0113ja paciest apvainojumu un no savas puses atbild\u0113ja kal\u0113jam ar to pa\u0161u, p\u0113c tam abi g\u0101ja uz tiesu pie stareca. Kal\u0113jam t\u016bl\u012bt pat tika piedots. Bet br\u0101lim, kur\u0161 v\u0113l\u0113j\u0101s n\u0113s\u0101t va\u017eas, starecs teica: Kur tu lien n\u0113sat va\u017eas, ka pat vienu p\u013cauku nevari paciest! Stareci, nomierinot savus paklaus\u012bbniekus ar \u0101r\u0113ju aizsk\u0101rumu, cent\u0101s vi\u0146iem par\u0101d\u012bt visu kritu\u0161\u0101s cilv\u0113ces dabas samait\u0101t\u012bbu. Vi\u0146i praks\u0113 atv\u0113ra vi\u0146u skatienam gribas v\u0101jumu, sapr\u0101ta tuvredz\u012bbu un sirds kaisl\u012bgumu. Stareci uzlika sev uzdevumu p\u0101rliecin\u0101t savus b\u0113rnus ne\u0146emt pirms laika gar\u012bgus varo\u0146darbus, kas p\u0101rsniedz vi\u0146u sp\u0113kus, bet prec\u012bzi izpild\u012bt Eva\u0146\u0123\u0113liju bau\u0161\u013cus. Vi\u0146i zin\u0101ja, ka \u0161\u0137ietamie pan\u0101kumi lielaj\u0101\u00a0 gar\u012bgaj\u0101s nodarb\u0113s var iesviest nenor\u016bd\u012bt\u0101s m\u0101cek\u013cu dv\u0113seles lepn\u012bb\u0101, kur ie\u0161ana Kristus bau\u0161\u013cu ce\u013cos oblig\u0101ti noved\u012bs vinus pie l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas. Sv\u0113tlaim\u012bgi ir tie, kuri apg\u016bst\u00a0 starecu pam\u0101c\u012bbas! Ta\u010du vienm\u0113r ir biju\u0161i \u013caudis, par kuriem ir sast\u0101d\u012bta paruna: \u201eKo nevar celt, to nevar nest\u201d. Optinas tuksne\u0161a fili\u0101l\u0113 divdesmit piecus gadus dz\u012bvoja paklaus\u012bbnieks Stefans. Vi\u0146\u0161 bija n\u0101cis no bag\u0101tas Kurskas tirgot\u0101ju dzimtas. Pasaul\u0113 vi\u0146am bija piekl\u0101j\u012bgs kapit\u0101ls un divst\u0101vu m\u0101ja. Iest\u0101joties kloster\u012b v\u0113l pavisam jaunam, Stefans daudzu paklaus\u012bbnieka gadu gait\u0101 bija ieguvis br\u0101\u013cu cie\u0146u un bija pat pietuvin\u0101ts starecam Ambrosijam. M\u012blot gar\u012bgo las\u0101mvielu, vi\u0146\u0161 \u012bpa\u0161i aizr\u0101v\u0101s ar sv\u0113t\u012bt\u0101ja J\u0101\u0146a Zeltamutes darbu stud\u0113\u0161anu. Sast\u0101d\u012bjis no sv\u0113t\u0101 darbiem izteicienu apkopojumu, Stefans izdeva to par saviem l\u012bdzek\u013ciem bez klostera priek\u0161niec\u012bbas sv\u0113t\u012bbas. Tas, protams, no paklaus\u012bbnieka puses bija Optinas noteikumu p\u0101rk\u0101pums, jo kloster\u012b l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba br\u0101\u013ciem tika m\u0101c\u012bta, atmetot vis\u0101 savu gribu un piln\u012bb\u0101 paklausot stareciem. T\u0101d\u0113\u013c Stefana pa\u0161a gribas r\u012bc\u012bba nepalika nepaman\u012bta. Klostera priek\u0161nieks\u00a0 arhimandr\u012bts Isakijs pasauca pie sevis paklaus\u012bbnieku un, nor\u0101dot uz jaunizdoto gr\u0101matu, pajaut\u0101ja vi\u0146am: Kas tas ir?- Mans.- Bet kur tu dz\u012bvo? \u2013Fili\u0101l\u0113.- Es zinu, ka fili\u0101l\u0113. Pie k\u0101 tu sa\u0146\u0113mi sv\u0113t\u012bbu izdot? Pats izdevu,- atbild\u0113ja Stefans. \u2013Nu, ja \u201epats\u201d, tad lai pie mums p\u0113c tavas gr\u0101matas pat nesmar\u017eo. Saprati? Ej!- stingri teica t\u0113vs Isakijs. Stefans tik \u013coti sadusmoj\u0101s uz priek\u0161nieku par\u00a0 r\u0101jienu, ka pat nepateica par sav\u0101m dusm\u0101m gar\u012bgajam t\u0113vam. Kad pien\u0101ca laiks iesv\u0113t\u012bt paklaus\u012bbnieku m\u016bku k\u0101rt\u0101, klostera priek\u0161niec\u012bba nol\u0113ma d\u0113\u013c pa\u0161apzin\u012bguma nesteigties iet\u0113rpt Stefanu mantij\u0101. Ta\u010du ar\u012b tas vi\u0146u neapskaidroja. Vi\u0146\u0161 v\u0113l vair\u0101k apvainoj\u0101s un pameta klosteri, ne par ko neuzskatot savu divdesmitpiecgad\u012bgo varo\u0146darbu. Stefans apmet\u0101s sav\u0101 dzimten\u0113 sav\u0101 lielaj\u0101 m\u0101j\u0101 kur\u0101 p\u0113c pieciem gadiem nomira. \u0160is piem\u0113rs uzskat\u0101mi ilustr\u0113 to paties\u012bbu, ka apvainojuma iedarb\u012bba uz mums nav atkar\u012bga no apvainojuma rakstura vai apvainot\u0101ja \u013caunuma pak\u0101pes, bet no m\u016bsu gar\u012bg\u0101 noska\u0146ojuma. Piev\u0113rsiet uzman\u012bbu: arhimandr\u012bts Isakijs nepavisam neapvainoja Stefanu, bet izteica vi\u0146am stingru r\u0101jienu vi\u0146a pa\u0161a lab\u0101. Ta\u010du reakcija nepavisam nebija paklaus\u012bga. Ja m\u0113s \u0101r\u0113ju aizsk\u0101rumu laik\u0101 pazaud\u0113jam paciet\u012bbu, tad par\u0101dam savu gar\u012bgo v\u0101jumu. \u0160aj\u0101 br\u012bd\u012b no m\u016bsu sirds pace\u013cas t\u0101s dzi\u013cumos eso\u0161\u0101 lepn\u012bba. Ja m\u0113s patiesi sevi uzskat\u0101m par pa\u0161iem gr\u0113c\u012bg\u0101kajiem un slikt\u0101kajiem Dieva kalpiem, tad aizsk\u0101rumi un apvainojumi m\u016bs nevar apb\u0113din\u0101t. Tie\u0161i otr\u0101di, tie atnes mums prieku, jo pateicoties tiem notiek gr\u0113ku att\u012br\u012b\u0161ana un m\u016bsu tr\u016bkumu labo\u0161ana. \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ien\u012bst apkaunojumu, ien\u012bst l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu\u201d Abba Dorofejs rakst\u012bja: \u201eTici, ka apkaunojums un ievainojums ir z\u0101les, kas arst\u0113 tavas dv\u0113seles lepn\u012bbu, l\u016bdzies par tiem, kuri tevi apvaino k\u0101 par tavas dv\u0113seles \u0101rstiem, esot p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, ka, tas, kur\u0161 ien\u012bst apkaunojumu, ien\u012bst l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, kur\u0161 b\u0113g no vi\u0146a apvainot\u0101jiem, tas b\u0113g no l\u0113n\u012bbas\u201d. V\u0113rt\u012bga pam\u0101c\u012bba. Ja m\u0113s ieklaus\u012bsimies \u0161ajos v\u0101rdos, tad visus m\u016bsu nedraugus, apvainot\u0101jus un atmaskot\u0101jus uztversim k\u0101 lab\u0101kos draugus. Ta\u010du nelaime ir taj\u0101, ka m\u0113s, panesot apvainojumus ar paciet\u012bbu, bie\u017ei sirds dzi\u013cumos izj\u016btam nepatiku pret apvainot\u0101jiem. T\u0101d\u0113\u013c sv\u0113tie starci, labi zinot kritu\u0161\u0101s cilv\u0113cisk\u0101s b\u016bt\u012bbas psiholo\u0123iju, vienm\u0113r uzman\u012bgi un gudri apvainoja savus gar\u012bgos b\u0113rnus. K\u0101du reizi sirdsskaidrais Karagandas Sebastians, sarun\u0101joties par cilv\u0113ku tikumiem, teica: \u201e\u0160os cilv\u0113kus nevar aiztikt, vi\u0146i lepn\u012bbas d\u0113\u013c nepanes\u012bs ne aizr\u0101d\u012bjumu, ne r\u0101jienu. Bet citus, p\u0113c vi\u0146u l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas, var\u201d. Da\u017ereiz starecs citu kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 p\u0101rmeta k\u0101dam no saviem l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgajiem m\u0101cek\u013ciem, lai pam\u0101c\u012btu tos, kuriem nevar tie\u0161i pateikt par p\u0101rk\u0101pumiem un tr\u016bkumiem. T\u0101dus vi\u0146\u0161 pats neatmaskoja un citiem neat\u013c\u0101va, bet gaid\u012bja, pacieta un l\u016bdz\u0101s, kam\u0113r cilv\u0113ks pats nev\u0113rs\u0101s pie Dieva un gar\u012bg\u0101 t\u0113va ar gr\u0113ku no\u017e\u0113lu. \u00a0 Bija gad\u012bjumi, kad sirdskaidrais Sebastians lika vec\u0101kajiem l\u016bgt piedo\u0161anu jaun\u0101kajiem, apvainotos nomierin\u0101ja, bet apvainot\u0101jus aizst\u0101v\u0113ja. Vi\u0146a pieredz\u0113ju\u0161ie m\u0101cek\u013ci priec\u0101j\u0101s par \u0161\u012bm l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbas stund\u0101m, saprotot, ka vis\u0101s starecs darb\u012bb\u0101s sl\u0113pjas gar\u012bga gudr\u012bba. \u00a0\u201eKur\u0161 ar prieku var paciest apvainojumu,- rakst\u012bja sirdsskaidrais S\u012brijas \u012azaks,- pat, ja uz rokas ir l\u012bdzek\u013ci to novirz\u012bt, tas ir sa\u0146\u0113mis iepriecin\u0101jumu no Dieva tic\u012bbas Vi\u0146am d\u0113\u013c. Un kur\u0161 ar sirds gudr\u012bbu pacie\u0161 pret vi\u0146u v\u0113rst\u0101s aps\u016bdz\u012bbas, tas ir sasniedzis piln\u012bbu, par vi\u0146u br\u012bn\u0101s e\u0146\u0123e\u013ci. Jo nav cita tikuma tik augsta un gr\u016bta\u201d. To zinot, stareci caur aizsk\u0101rumiem veda savus gar\u0101 stipros m\u0101cek\u013cus uz piln\u012bbu, tai pa\u0161\u0101 laik\u0101 sarg\u0101jot vaj\u0101kos. Vadot savu gar\u012bgo b\u0113rnu dz\u012bves, Belgradas starecs shiarhimandr\u012bts\u00a0 Grigorijs m\u012bl\u0113ja dot pazem\u012bbas stundas. Par\u0101ja citu kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 par gr\u0113kiem, ko cilv\u0113ks nav izdar\u012bjis un skat\u0101s uz reakciju-apvainosies vai n\u0113? Starecs m\u0101c\u012bja: \u201eL\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bba- visu tikumu pamats. Kad v\u0101rpa ir tuk\u0161a, m\u0113t\u0101jas uz vis\u0101m pus\u0113m, bet, kad piepild\u012bts ar graudiem, noliecas un v\u0113tras vi\u0146u vairs nebaida. T\u0101 ar\u012b cilv\u0113ks: tuk\u0161s \u00a0m\u0113t\u0101jas \u0161urpu turpu, bet l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bgs visos p\u0101rbaud\u012bjumos nevar savainoties\u201d. Daudzi no tiem, kuri ir izg\u0101ju\u0161i shiarhimandr\u012bta\u00a0 Grigorija skolu, v\u0113l\u0101k ir k\u013cuvu\u0161i par igumeniem,\u00a0 arhimandr\u012btiem un b\u012bskapiem. Ja m\u0113s cen\u0161amies ieg\u016bt l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu, mums visu laiku j\u0101l\u016bdz Dievam pal\u012bdz\u012bba. Ta\u010du ir j\u0101atceras abba Dorofeja pam\u0101c\u012bba: \u201eKatram, kur\u0161 l\u016bdz Dievu : \u201eKungs, dod man l\u0113npr\u0101t\u012bbu,\u201d- , j\u0101saprot, ka vi\u0146\u0161 l\u016bdz Dievu, lai Vi\u0146\u0161 ats\u016bta k\u0101du apvainot\u0101ju. T\u0101tad, ja k\u0101ds vi\u0146u apvaino, tad ar\u012b vi\u0146am pa\u0161am sevi j\u0101pazemina un dom\u0101s sevi j\u0101noniev\u0101, lai taj\u0101 laik\u0101, kad cits ierobe\u017eo vi\u0146u no \u0101rpuses, vi\u0146\u0161 pats sevi samierina no iek\u0161puses\u201d. T\u0101du \u0101r\u0113j\u0101s pazemin\u0101\u0161anas savienojumu ar iek\u0161\u0113jo pa\u0161pazemin\u0101\u0161anos var atrast sirdsskaidr\u0101 Optinas Mak\u0101rija dz\u012bvesst\u0101st\u0101. Optinas tuksne\u0161a priek\u0161nieks arhimandr\u012bts Mozus k\u0101du reizi pajaut\u0101ja sterecam ieroshim\u016bkam Makarijam pa\u0146emt savai gar\u012bgai vad\u012bbai jauniesv\u0113t\u012btos m\u016bkus. T\u0113vs Makarijs priek\u0161nieka l\u016bgumu uztv\u0113ra k\u0101 pav\u0113li un atbild\u0113ja paklanoties. P\u0113c tam vi\u0146\u0161 g\u0101ja pie sava gar\u012bg\u0101 t\u0113va ieroshim\u016bka \u013beva, kur\u0161 atrad\u0101s k\u0101 vienm\u0113r daudzu gar\u012bgo b\u0113rnu ielenkum\u0101 un pazem\u012bgi past\u0101st\u012bja\u00a0 vi\u0146am par savu sarunu ar priek\u0161nieku. K\u0101d\u0113\u013c tu piekriti?- ar nobriedu\u0161u bardz\u012bbu pajaut\u0101ja t\u0113vs Makarijs. J\u0101, gandr\u012bz piekritu, jeb lab\u0101k teikt, nevar\u0113ju atteikt,- atbild\u0113ja t\u0113vs Makarijs. J\u0101, tas ir rakstur\u012bgi tavai lepn\u012bbai,- teica ieroshim\u016bks \u013bevs, bet p\u0113c tam, pie\u0146\u0113mis bargu izskatu, s\u0101ka ska\u013ci cilv\u0113ku kl\u0101tb\u016btn\u0113 p\u0101rmest savam paz\u012bstamajam gar\u012bgajam d\u0113lam. T\u0113vs Makarijs st\u0101v\u0113ja ar noliektu galvu, pazem\u012bgi klan\u012bj\u0101s un periodiski atk\u0101rtoja: -Vain\u012bgs, piedodiet Dieva d\u0113\u013c, ba\u0137u\u0161ka! Visi kl\u0101teso\u0161ie ar dievbij\u012bgu apbr\u012bnu k\u0101du laiku nov\u0113roja, k\u0101 viens liels starecs pazemo otru ne maz\u0101k lielu starecu. Kad t\u0113vs \u013bevs apklusa, starecs Makarijs, paklanoties vi\u0146am l\u012bdz zemei kautr\u012bgi izdvesa: Piedodiet, ba\u0137u\u0161ka. Sv\u0113t\u012bjiet atteikties? – K\u0101 atteikties? Pats uzpras\u012bjies un tagad atteikties. N\u0113, tagad nevar atteikties, darbs ir izdar\u012bts,- teica t\u0113vs \u013bevs, kur\u0161 netais\u012bj\u0101s at\u0146emt jaunajiem m\u016bkiem pieredz\u0113ju\u0161u gar\u012bgo t\u0113vu, tikai izmantojot gad\u012bjumu, lai par\u0101d\u012btu saviem gar\u012bgajiem b\u0113rniem patiesas pazem\u012bbas piem\u0113ru. K\u0101 sa\u0146emt pazemojumus no jaun\u0101kajiem un padotajiem? Audzinot pazem\u012bbu citos, sv\u0113tie personiskajai pilnveido\u0161anai nepalaida gar\u0101m iesp\u0113jas ar\u012b…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":6,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[379],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2228","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-nikolaja-vestnesis-2018"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2228\/"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post\/"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/6\/"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments\/?post=2228"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2228\/revisions\/"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2251,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2228\/revisions\/2251\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/?parent=2228"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories\/?post=2228"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.morskoj-sobor.lv\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags\/?post=2228"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}